Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Change is All Wet

All I know is pouring rain and everything has changed.

-- Taylor Swift, Ed Sheeran, Everything Has Changed.

Tuesday, October 29, 2013


Morning sunlight trickles through the open window, traveling on specks of dust.
It washes it all away.

He stumbles down the  sidewalk, alone.  And his heart slips out of his chest and slides onto the concrete.
There it imprints itself, growing outwards, its mottled colors sloughing over the sides of its shape.

The pavement cracks, noiselessly cleaving one side from the other.
A hole tears open.
His shadow, standing tall, stumbles, loses its footing, and slips in.

Eyes dart frantically, side to side.  To side.
No one is there.
His street is empty.
He sees no one else.  And no one else sees.

His legs liquefy.  He wobbles.
Standing still, but now unsteady.
And the edge creeps closer.

As he peers down, he sees the crack widening.
And he sees The Nothing.

And it's waiting.
And it's smiling.
And it's truth.
It tugs at him.

The clouds move in front of the sun, and he feels awash in grayness.

It's cold.  But he's sweating.

Tossing side to side, his eyes snap open.

Morning sunlight trickles through the windows.  Gently, it washes it all away.
But outside, the sidewalk splits wide open.

Monday, October 28, 2013

Scorched Flowers, Broken.

"This flower is scorched
This film is on
On a maddening loop
These clothes
These clothes don't fit us right
I'm to blame
It's all the same
It's all the same

You come to me with the bone
in your hand
You come to me with your hair curled tight
You come to me with positions
You come to me with excuses
Ducked out in a row
You wear me out
You wear me out
We've been through fake-a-breakdown
Self hurt
Plastics, collections
Self help, self pain,
EST, psychics, fuck all
I was central
I had control
I lost my head
I need this
I need this"

-- REM, Country Feedback

Hold on. For Dear Life.

"So, bless my heart and bless my mind.
I got so much to do, I ain't got much time
So, must be someone up above saying,
'Come on, girl! Yeah, you got to get back up!
You got to hold on...
Yeah, you got to hold on...'"

-- Alabama Shakes, Hold On

Thursday, October 17, 2013

Book Lines All Smushed Up

I woke up in the middle of a dream, scared the world was too much for me.  The sky was almost black, but the snow shone a bright blue in the moonlight.

We were sitting in the cathedral of Notre Dame, waiting for the priest.  It amused the Crow's Eye to make them wait and pour.  Against boredom, even the gods themselves struggle in vain.  

God and whiskey got me where I am. 
Too little of one, too much of the other.

You can tell a lot just by the tiniest change in the air.  Winter comes to water as well as land, though there are no leaves to fall.  The waves that were a bright, hard blue yesterday under a fading sky today are green, opaque, and cold.  Looking deeply at the leaf, he saw clearly the presence of the sun and stars - without the sun, without light and warmth, the leaf could not exist.

"Hey! You can't be back here." I turn towards the voice. A cop, flashlight in hand, coming at me. I think about running. Even at my age, even after all this time, my first instinct is to run.


"Tears stream. Down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream. Down your face
And I .... will try.  To fix you."

-- Coldplay, Fix You

Saturday, October 12, 2013

On Writing - The Monogatori

"A story, a monogatori, is not something you create.  
It is something that you pull out of yourself.
The story is already there, inside you.
You can't make it, you can only bring it out....

You have to believe you have the ability to tell the story,
to strike the vein of water, to make the pieces of the puzzle fit together.
Without that confidence, you can't go anywhere....

I believe in the power of the story.
I believe in the power of the story to arouse something in our spirits, in our minds -
something that has been handed down to use from ancient times."

-- Haruki Murakami

Friday, October 11, 2013

This Is Your Brain On Lyrics. And My Lyrics Are Bottomless. ??

"See me lose focus, as I sing to you loud
And I can’t, no, I won’t hush
I’ll say the words that make you blush
I’m gonna sing this now."

-- Ed Sheeran, You Need Me.  I Don't Need You.

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Streaming Consciousness

That's impossible.

"Nothing's impossible; I taught my dog how to say I love you."  RaRuvU!

Sit Ubu.  Sit.  Good dog.

The dog days of summer.  Dog Days Are Over.  Little League Baseball; it keeps parents off the streets.

See the ball.  Hit the ball.

Wrecking ball.  Ball of nerves.  Palms sweating.

Handshake deal.

SMH.  #ShakeMyHead

<3 Cosmic Love.

HashtagHashtag.  Octothorpe.  Octogenarian.  Antediluvian.  Antidisestablishmentarianism.

Supercalifragilisticexpiallidocious.  IamSixteenGoingOnSeventeen.

Grow up.

I won't grow up.  I won't grow up.

Grow down.  Root down; I put my foot down.  And if you want to battle me, you're putting loot down.

Grass-roots.  Mow the lawn.  Wipe the brow.  A cool lemonade, mixed with an iced tea.  And mint leaves.  On the patio.  Delicious.

Scrumptious.  Scrum-diddly-umptious.

Silliness.  Play.

We play.  To win.  The game.

The game in life; behind the game, behind the game.

Who got game?  Don't hate the player.  Hate the game.

Gamification.  Gamify me.  Monetize me.

Hit me, you can't hurt me.  Suck my kiss.

Socks.  Laundry.  Static cling!  Ring-around-the-collar.  Ring around the rosie.  All fall down!
Drip-dry.  French roast.

A piping hot cuppa coffee.  "I like my coffee black, like my men."

Breakfast.  At Tiffany's.  George Peppard.  A-Team.  BA.
"I love it when a plan comes together."

Come together.  Right now.  Over me.

If you step over me, I'll stop growing.
Step on a crack.  Break your mother's back.

Cracks are important.  They let the light in.

Sunshine.  The best disinfectant.
Wear Sunscreen.

Bear your soul.

Make the impossible possible.  Change that up.
On point.  On message.  In rhythm.

Tiny dancer.
Shrinking down.

Floating flecks of dust.  Motes.
Bridge down.  Storm across the moat.


World Leader, Pretend.

Fake it, till you make it.  Grind it out.
Make it happen.

Monday, October 7, 2013

Explode Into Tomorrow

"Had a dream of a new tomorrow.
If you don't get it, then you don't get it.
I took a step hoping you might follow.
If you don't get it, then you don't get it.
Take a chance for a minute. Jump in it."

-- Five for Fighting, What If