I'm in the bathroom. Terrified and trembling, awash with the feeling that I am literally
That I have lost - no -
Been abandoned by, my own self.
Inside the pit of my stomach, a feeling like being trapped in one of those dreams where your teeth are falling out of your mouth. Or you are losing your hair. And you can't make it stop.
Gripping the sides of the sink, I look up at the mirror.
Ugliness reflects back at me.